Tag Archives: doubt

In Deep Time, 2

The Inchoateness of Being [T]his slow process of transformation and the realizations that came with it were not either-or decisions; they were great big both-and realizations. None of it happened without much prayer, self-doubt, study and conversation, but the journey itself led me to a deepening sense of what the church calls holiness, what Americans […]

He is Here (Revelation 3:20)

Forgotten first love, our hunger is lacking We’ve left Him adrift in a sea of disdain He stands at the door, awaiting the asking.   We no longer see what with Him we obtain The Vine feeds the branch, but we want our poison We’ve left Him adrift in a sea of disdain.   Hold […]

In the Waiting

  In waiting, do you grieve and wail Or curse the parching desert floor? Hope’s turned to hiding, doubt’s your friend? Praise God, the One whose love transforms.   Your secret fear’s your prayers have failed, A wilderness not known before; You long for clarity to wend. Praise God, the One whose love transforms.   […]

Steadfast Faith

In steadfast faith I love my God Though prayers sometimes hang in midair As I remain imprisoned here And feel as though He does not care.   So many others rise to fame While wealth and power still do reign Yes, eating with the poor is nice We’re occupied, there is no gain.   I […]

In Prayer

I Raise My Palms Illness, struggle, troubles advance. Desperate for a fighting chance I shake my fists in grief, despair, I raise my palms to you in prayer.   In sun or rain I used to dance but storms, they drowned my confidence. With you my doubts I used to share. I raise my palms […]

Heart Condition

A Spiritual Battle in Hindsight Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8 It is remarkable what hindsight and an abundance of faith does for the perspective of a believer. Two weeks ago, I was in a spiritual battle. While in it, […]

Class of We Made It

Coping with Being Human and Being Christian Yesterday, the weeping came and I couldn’t stop it. It was entirely out of my control. I am looking to move. I am on disability after more than 20 years of teaching elementary school. I live in California. I will start on Medicare in a month-and-a-half, which, with […]

Heart Condition

Freedom “Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom.” 2 Corinthians 3:17 We have freedom as far as it does not intrude upon the freedom of others. We have freedom in the New Covenant of Jesus Christ. The apostle Paul was continually trying to pry open […]